Prompt: WHAT’S THE BIGGEST RISK YOU’D LIKE TO TAKE – BUT HAVEN’T BEEN ABLE TO? WHAT WOULD HAVE TO HAPPEN TO MAKE YOU COMFORTABLE TAKING IT?
Answer: The thing that prevents me most from taking risks is my fear of death. I know that everyone fears the darkness that will eventually come to all of us but for me, it is a silent fear. There are days where I randomly think about death and it frightens me so much that it blocks me from thinking clearly. That being said, there are a lot of risky activities that I would love to partake in. Such examples are skydiving, bungee jumping, sliding down a huge pyramid and doing various stunts. I think I would like the adrenaline rush of the activities but my fear of height and anxiety of something going wrong prevents me from diving right into it.
There are also activities that doesn’t involve being up high such as swimming in an open ocean with friendly sharks or rock climbing that I get so tense about. I know that I shouldn’t be fearing these things and that if I want to do them, I should! But it’s a matter of trying to train my mind at this point to tell myself that it’s okay to have these feelings and that it will soon pass. I tell myself that I will get over this fear and I will eventually get over it.
I don’t have a clear vision on how to fully get myself comfortable yet but each day, I’m willing to do something that is outside of my comfort zone. As soon as I am comfortable with myself and enjoying the life that I am living, I feel as if death will come easier and that it shouldn’t be something we fear and that if the worse happens…it happens. So be it but to live your life in fear constantly and not enjoy it sounds so wrong to me. But yes…to skydive and to bungee jump and to scream at the top of my lungs as I’m falling from the sky with such an adrenaline rush.