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Learning to Take Risks

Well, it seems like my pursuit of getting a teaching credential may soon be coming to an end. After experiencing a classroom of kindergarteners since January, I discovered that I may be heading towards the wrong field. As much as I love working with the students and seeing their progress throughout the years, I have to admit that my desire to get into the education field has subsided and I feel like I was entering it for the wrong reasons. I have to admit that a part of me is embarrassed by my lack of persistence into this field. I have been telling family members, friends and acquaintances of my eventual becoming of being a teacher for many years now. And to back out of that career may seem like I am quitting but I like to see it as I discovered what I do and do not want. I was getting so burnt out by the entertainment industry but when I got away from it for a little bit, it made me want to go back and I reclaimed the fire that I had lost so many years ago.

I had a true evaluation of myself and I found that the luxury of the teacher’s schedule, meaning the time they are physically in the classroom, was appealing. I found the summer hours off quite beneficial as well. But to say that you want to get into the field of education because of the schedule just feels wrong. There has to be an innate and strong desire to really put your passion into this occupation in order to succeed. I would feel like I would not do my job properly and it would just be utterly unfair to the kids.

Luckily for me, I chose a program that was on the inexpensive side. It was an online based course but I had to clock in observation hours at a local elementary school. To finish the program, it would have cost me $10,000 but because I only did one term, I shelled out $4,500. Granted that this was an investment in finding out that education was not for me, I like to say I am happy I took the risk and discovered something that had been lingering in my head for quite some time. The “What If” and my original desire to become a teacher no longer persists in my head. I think that is the joy of taking risks because you end up figuring out something new about yourself and whether you truly have the values you thought you had.

I realized that the main reason I wanted the schedule of a teacher (even though they clock in a LOT of out of classroom hours) was to pursue my passion in television and filmmaking. I wanted to use that flexibility I thought teachers had in order to make my own production company and to shoot a wide variety of videos, because I felt like I would have the time. FALSE. I realized that the job of a teacher is so draining during their 6 hour day that by the end of my observation days, I would want to just simply rest and not focus on anything else. I feel like if I had entered the profession, I would put my dream of being a producer or a director on the back burner and as a result, hurt my path to achieving my dreams.

This brings me to another risky venture I am now going to pursue. Instead of following my path to become a teacher, I’m going to put my money where my mouth is and start investing in making a production company. I have so far spent about $4500 in terms of setting up my studio filled with a professional camera, audio equipment, lighting and other essentials. I am reading about how to start a small business and getting inspired by a wide range of filmmaking books. Although this venture can be quite costly, it is a direction which I truly feel strongly about. I’ve always been hopeful to be in a position where I can have creative control in life and to be able to collaborate with other filmmakers to pursue art. The production company, starting out, would be focused on weddings, corporate videos and freelancing gigs that could earn some income, build its brand and their client base. Eventually, I hope that the production company can invest more into their short and long form narrative pieces of work and have more reputable clients.

Who knows for sure if my production company will succeed. I know I don’t. But the idea is that I am taking a risk right now into pursuing something I had been afraid of doing for 5-6 years now. It took me trying to get away from the entertainment industry and into a new field, to make me realize that I still love visual media. I hope that my risk taking will pay off and that I learn a lot throughout this start-up. But I know for a fact that taking a step towards your dream, is one of the best risks that one can take because it will show you how passionate you can become.

Writing My Own Obituary

I’m currently reading “Achieve Anything In Just One Year” by Jason Harvey. What I have been doing this past year is to write in my journal every single day, according to the assignment of the day in his book. I am currently on Day 146 and in this section, it asks us to write our own obituary.

Obviously this idea is quite morbid. Who wants to think about our undoing or our end. Who also wants to write about it and what’s the point? According to Jason, the point of the exercise is that it allows us to think about our life and how content we are about it. It makes you think about what people think of you at the end of your life and whether you feel accomplished by everything that you have done or not. It is an exercise that encourages participation and active engagement and to prevent yourself from procrastinating too much in life. You get to focus on the time that you have left and to make sure that you utilize it as much as you possible can.

Without further ado, here is a short obituary that I wrote for myself. It’s going be weird coming back to it in a few years.

The Life of Anh Phan

Anh Phan was born on May 2nd, 1987. He passed away peacefully on September 9th, 2072 at the prime age of 85. He was born in Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam and emigrated to the United States when he was 3. He was raised in the city of Worcester, MA for many years before making the move to Los Angeles to pursue a career in the entertainment industry.

Mr. Phan had a long and prosperous career. He earned his bachelors at Emerson College in 2010 in the degree of Visual Media Arts. After several years on a variety of television shows in the industry, he made the transition to the field of education. He earned his California teaching credential in December of 2014 and started his elementary education career that following January. He further pursued his education by earning his Masters & Doctorate degree at California State University – Northridge in 2016 and 2018 respectively.

A renowned educator and disciplined in the field of self-help, Mr. Phan traveled across the United States and spoke at conferences to help improve our education infrastructure and to motivate young students to be active with their life. He wrote several best-selling self-development books as a means to encourage the general population to get started on the right path.

Mr. Phan was always an ambitious and driven characters who always saw the best in his friends, family and colleagues. His smile lit up the faces of many who had the fortunate opportunity to know him. But behind his warm nature was also a fiery spirit as well. He was an avid dodgeball player throughout his youth and participated in several long distance races in his career. He used his athletic experience to help coach youth Cross country teams to great success.

Mr. Phan was a gracious character and will be missed for his kindness, enthusiastic energy and contributions to his community.

He leaves behind his husband, Taylor Jacobs of 50 years, along with two sons and two daughters.

Post thoughts on the obituary

I definitely felt weird writing this. Not because it involves death but I found myself wanting people to praise me. I had to come up with adjectives to describe how I think people think of me and it seems a bit conceited. I know I have certain traits that my friends tell me are quite appealing but to write about it, felt a bit off. It definitely made me think about my career goals and really put into perspective of how I envisioned my life to look like. It boiled down to educator, motivational speaker and best-selling writer. We’ll see how this turns out!

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